That Feeling

It is probably only me. But it eats me alive inside.
Now if you are like me, who had many bad experiences with friendship thingy in the past, you become... Obsessed with the new friends you make.

Yeah...

It is because you just made a gad damn friend. He/she is perfect. You look up to her/him, you want to be like her/him and damn, you end up being a little too connected to that person.

If your heart chakra is over-active like mine, you care a little too much about these friends, you make them feel too... I don't know, bored, dull, Can't breathe, you get the point. You are a tail. And this makes you look selfish, because you are also TOO SENSITIVE.

In my past, I hated, hated when people told me about my bad parts. I was like,

Seeing how this only makes things worse, I stopped it and realized that it was much better, remember the part where I said "You look up to this person, you want to be like this person" ? Yes. This thing helps you get there.

The feeling, is the feeling I'll now talk about.

The constant and not stopping feeling of... "OMG I WONDER IF HE/SHE HATES ME: D: D: D:"

Feels familiar? Hello.

This thing sucks. There is no good part of it. Everyday, everynight you only think, "I wonder If I did something wrong... I wonder if she/he is mad... Why is she/he so cold to me?!?"

I actually got headache one night thinking "How can I make her/him happy......." And couldn't slept for 1 hour. Which made me wake up like this:

Thankfully, that is behind. Actually... Only 2 days... Oh well. 

Later I learned that this person was thinking the similiar things. Thinking that I was acting cold and wouldn't want him/her to talk to me.

Hearing this and coming home. I went in front of mirror and gave myself a nice:

Refreshing.

Moral: Don't be too sensitive. Make moves. Make people know that you can change and you can care. The end. <3