Hate.

Over these days in my life on earth, I never thought I could actually hate. You proved me wrong tho. In my life, I never hated anyone else with this much passion.

Stop Screwing My Mind.

Some people just like to make me lose my mind. Apperently. I don't know why. But I want to know. I'm tired of trying to find mistakes in myself. I'm tired of always thinking things before I sleep and during school. I'M sick of crying everything I have to my friend Sevim. I'm sick of people being mean and away. I'm sick of everything. I'm sick of myself thanks to everything.

Now I don't know what people think.

One day, they are close.
The other day, they hate me.

I HATE MONDAYS.

 

 

Aunt Experience.

Aunt: *Knock on the door*

Winter: Come in!

Aunt: *Behind the door* Please get that thing (something) to sitting room. *Walks away*

-_-...

But wait. There is more.

Aunt: *Knocks on the door*

Winter: Please don't come in.

Aunt: *Opens the door* Why?! What happened? What are you doing?

P.E

Ahh. P.E Class. Fave of most because it is like Holiday in school! Mostly. There are of course times which you will be tired and get... Uhm... Tired... I can't find anything else really. Sorreh.

Today in our P.E class, I changed into my sport clothes (Which didn't look like sport clothes AT ALL.) And played TableTennis, Badminton, and talked. No I didn't "played talked" STOP TROLLING ME.
I have some photos of it which I'll upload in a later post because I'm...

Yup! Rub-a-dub-dub. I had some of the friends, people eating stuff, people playing volleyball, the homeworks being given to Silvana, who had to collect the works and bring it to teacher.

Give me all you have! MWHAHAHAHA

Maybe not.

I, like every other one in our classroom, did it in school, looking to someone else's paper WHO DID THE HOMEWORK ALSO AT SCHOOL, LOOKING TO SOMEONE'S PAPER WHO DID IT IN SCHOOL. WHO DID THE HOMEWORK ALSO AT SCHOOL, LOOKING TO SOMEONE'S PAPER WHO DID IT IN SCHOOL. WHO...

Agh. Paradoxes. they are like, everywhere.

That Feeling

It is probably only me. But it eats me alive inside.
Now if you are like me, who had many bad experiences with friendship thingy in the past, you become... Obsessed with the new friends you make.

Yeah...

It is because you just made a gad damn friend. He/she is perfect. You look up to her/him, you want to be like her/him and damn, you end up being a little too connected to that person.

If your heart chakra is over-active like mine, you care a little too much about these friends, you make them feel too... I don't know, bored, dull, Can't breathe, you get the point. You are a tail. And this makes you look selfish, because you are also TOO SENSITIVE.

In my past, I hated, hated when people told me about my bad parts. I was like,

Seeing how this only makes things worse, I stopped it and realized that it was much better, remember the part where I said "You look up to this person, you want to be like this person" ? Yes. This thing helps you get there.

The feeling, is the feeling I'll now talk about.

The constant and not stopping feeling of... "OMG I WONDER IF HE/SHE HATES ME: D: D: D:"

Feels familiar? Hello.

This thing sucks. There is no good part of it. Everyday, everynight you only think, "I wonder If I did something wrong... I wonder if she/he is mad... Why is she/he so cold to me?!?"

I actually got headache one night thinking "How can I make her/him happy......." And couldn't slept for 1 hour. Which made me wake up like this:

Thankfully, that is behind. Actually... Only 2 days... Oh well. 

Later I learned that this person was thinking the similiar things. Thinking that I was acting cold and wouldn't want him/her to talk to me.

Hearing this and coming home. I went in front of mirror and gave myself a nice:

Refreshing.

Moral: Don't be too sensitive. Make moves. Make people know that you can change and you can care. The end. <3

THE WORD

IT WAS POSER. I'M SUCH A POSER. AGH.